Not one much for New Year's Resolutions (0r many deep thoughts for that matter), my dear friend Faye's invitation to her New Year's Eve Party tonight asked that we bring an idea or an object "that we would like to leave behind this year" has got me thinking. Is there anything about this year and my relationship with Riley I want to leave behind?
Certainly there has been a ton of good stuff. Watching Riley turn 16; achieve some of his athletic goals; get his driver's license; and still knowing that he needs his mom now and again as I've cheered him on through his successes and consoled him through his disappointments (and helped him through a few travel emergencies) have all been important experiences and not ones to leave behind but rather to squirrel away in that very special place that holds our memories.
So what to leave? Perhaps the anxiety of building a new relationship in a shared parenting scenario. Accepting I will always be his mom but that as he grows older and our relationship changes, looking forward to more wonderful memories and being less anxious about the impact of the decisions I've needed to make. That anxiety has certainly caused me many sleepless nights and I'd love to leave that feeling behind!
There will be a tremendous amount of pressure on Riley this year and I can help him best by continuing to be his mom, his number one fan and provide the unconditional love that is so easy to do.
Here comes 2008 Riley and the poster on your bedroom wall that says "Its a long road to Beijing" is truer now more than ever. The road is much shorter now and I'll be there on the road in what ever way you need me.
Much love xoxo
Certainly there has been a ton of good stuff. Watching Riley turn 16; achieve some of his athletic goals; get his driver's license; and still knowing that he needs his mom now and again as I've cheered him on through his successes and consoled him through his disappointments (and helped him through a few travel emergencies) have all been important experiences and not ones to leave behind but rather to squirrel away in that very special place that holds our memories.
So what to leave? Perhaps the anxiety of building a new relationship in a shared parenting scenario. Accepting I will always be his mom but that as he grows older and our relationship changes, looking forward to more wonderful memories and being less anxious about the impact of the decisions I've needed to make. That anxiety has certainly caused me many sleepless nights and I'd love to leave that feeling behind!
There will be a tremendous amount of pressure on Riley this year and I can help him best by continuing to be his mom, his number one fan and provide the unconditional love that is so easy to do.
Here comes 2008 Riley and the poster on your bedroom wall that says "Its a long road to Beijing" is truer now more than ever. The road is much shorter now and I'll be there on the road in what ever way you need me.
Much love xoxo
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